Rember December

Well how's life people? It's been so long sine the last time I posted something. Yea, my blog is ou of reach already since I have my tumblr. So, for the start of the last year, I'd like to tell you a story. A true story of mine, not lyric from Demi's song. So, here's the story begin......
(You may call this as sweet, romantic, awesome, fantastic or whatever. But yeaaaaaa, seriously, I never get what does surprise really mean)

It happened in 28th of December 2010
I woke up at 6.oo a.m in the morning because of the alarm rang me up from my dream. Okay I guess I wasn't dreaming at all, but yea it disturbed me. I still sleepy tho', but someone kept on sending me BBM and phoned me. I wasn't answer any of 'em, too lazy to reached my cell phone. N because i already had a plan t came to jogging track with this person, so I pulled myself up, washed the face, brushed teeth, changed clothes and went out.

After arriving at the jogging, I found him nowhere at that place. Omg he still on is way to jogging track, what a...... So I decided to ogged first. After 2 lap, then he asked where was my position. I said inside the jogging track, then I went on jogging again, and I saw him jogged to me, with his right hand behind his back. After he was near to me, he gave me a bouquet of pink rose! With his right hand yeaa. Okay okay don't hold the breathe girls, wait.
Okay then I felt a lil' bit surprised, then I said thank you, he said you're welcome.

And then he asked me to closed my eyes while he covered mine with white cloth, but still man i could peek out from the under haha. After that he held m shoulder to guide me to got into the car and brought to the place Idk where was that (FYI, who was driving was his friend, bcs he sat at the backseat next to me). Okay when we arrived, still I had some stairs mae of stone to stepped n almost fell down, jeez. When arrived at the top of it, he ordered to open the cloth an my eyes. I opened it and tadaaaaaaa.........
I was standing on the helipad something n I saw him holding ballons with a banner consisted of words 'I love u' . Ahahaha don't be like that girls, it's just a surprise, stay calm haha. Okay then he asked me to made it float to the sky together while making a wish (okay this is pretty ridiculous I almost laugh). Well we floated it together, byebye balloons

He asked me to close my eyes one more. Thought it was over already -_- And then he brought me to the jogging track again and then we went to a hut which was located on somekind of hill. Omg he already prepared tiramisu cake when I opened my eyes! There were 3 cups of cake on the top of the cake with the words 'I love u', again. But the cake was half destroyed because the word 'I' was gone hahaha. And then this guy was sooooo brilliant bcs :

1. He didn't bring any spoon or something to ea the cake ._.
2. He didn't know how to cut the cake ._.
3. But he brought me cheese burger! \(^o^)/

And then yeaaaaa, I guess that's all. He called it 'December Surprise' well ._. I called it, say it or not? No? Yes? Okay, sweet :) Alright people thank you for reading ad hope you have a great New Year's eve and New Year of 2011, may this year could be even better than before. Ciao!

P.S : I love you too :)

We're having our start in the minor

Hello sun-day,

How have you been? Amazing? Hope it'll be.

Me? Pretty amazing. Well, not that amazing actually. Just hoping.

I ought to have my driving lesson today with my mom, but yeaaa in fact that my sister gonna has her final tests tomorrow, so it may be postponed or something. Terrible -_-

I don't know what to post anyway, really. Got any idea? Oh okay I'll try looklet again. And maybe it works already. I mean, not LAME anymore. It always be like that. Lacking -_- Or should I try polyvore? Hope it's not as lame as looklet.

Okay hey I'm back! With polyvores for sure. Si I've made 2 fashion design. Who doesn't into fashion? Raise your hand! No one? Good. So here are my polyvores. Check 'em

Yes only 2. I'm not really in the zone to designing something. Aaaaaaand looklet still lacking anyway -_- Is that just my ID or t5he internet? Or should I made another account of looklet? Well let's see about it tomorrow. Hope it won't be lacking anymore. Chao

What's on the street now baby?

Hello sat-ur-day,

How have you been? All good? Hope so

So I spent my saturday by tuitioning my lil' sist for her upcoming final tests in her school and sync my iTouch. What a great sister I am -_- HaHa. I should be go out with my first sist toda, but yeaa my mom asked me to gave my lil' sist tuition. What a day -_-

And hey, actually I already planned to take some shoots with my first sist. But still, got no time -_- hellashitta. Spell it out -_- So I'm about to post some looks that I heart the most on lookbook. And the looks that I'm gonna make from looklet. So here we go sat-ur-day!

Okay looklet was being sooooooo lame. Just leave it -_- And I'm so in love with that tutu, ripped legging and leopard tights!!! Awwwwwwesome!!!

Curled up in the ball with something Hanes

Hell-O loves,

Gawd it's almost June aite? We're almost in the middle of the year 2010. Seriously, how fast time goes. And I'm almost a senior hi school student. Ha-ha. I thought I was only in the freshman year in the secondary school. But now, I'm almost in the freshman year of senior hi school! Seriously, this just so damn faster than you ever think before. 3 years never been too long. It's just same as you blink your eyes, and BAM! You're a senior hi school student with that white-gray uniform that you'll wear. And I'm about to wear it. Ha-ha soooooo fast

So, I'm still waiting for the next announcement from my candidate schools. I hope I passed it all. God, amen.

Oh okay so I still got no planning for my holiday. Some plans to spend my holiday usefully. There's no plans. Pathetic huh? Soooo damn pathetic I guess. Actually I'm thinking about continue my violin lesson. But still I got no time to search about the courses of it. I fckin want my violin lesson to start agaiiiin!! Or else gimme guitar lesson! Anything about music will do. So when I got nothing to do, I took these pictures. Gahahahah sooo fugly maan

And oyeah, I've polished my nails this with.........

Cute red nail polisher! Uh-oh I always crazy about nail polishing. Esp RED. It looks so stunning somehow if you use it. Agree? Agree?

I'm breaking.....down

Morning loves, hello tuesday

Hey, I'm about to ask you guys something. If someone broke your heart, and you like, ummm hurt so badly, and you have to tell that person about that, but you just can't, what will you do? Cause I just felt that way and got no idea about what to do. Seriously, pathetic.

I was messing around these days. Problems all around. And I still couldn't find the way how to solve 'em all. How? HOW?! Sheez. This is suck. These people are suck.

I've been breaking down. I keep thinking about what do people feel, even tho' they NEVER think or even care about mine. Damn pathetic. Yes me. So how to make it STOP?!

Seriously, I wanna talk over about this with that person. But, I just.....can't. Why? Don't ask me why. I don't know why. And never know why. I got no bravery to tell it. Even tho' I know that person so well. Well, not that well I guess. But pretty well.

But now I'm in my way to make such a space between me and you. I need my own space to think, to breathe, to calm myself down. I know if it does really work or not. But I hope so. Cause it won't be that easy. Ain't easy.

I'm terrible, miserable, broken and of course pathetic. So what's next?

I'm a complete disaster!

Hello loves,

Hey I got a greatgreat news! Guess what? I did it!!! I graduate!! Yes I am!! Finally, I've been finishing the 3 years studying in the junior high school. I am soooooooo damn EXCITED!!! The most tense moment ever was when teacher gave me and my friends the envelope, and my heart beated faster than before until i was hardly breathe. Seriously, I was. And when I opened the envelope, I found a white paper with "Congratulation Nada, you're passing the exam" OMG OMG OMG in sudden me and my friends were shouting each other that we've PASSED THE MOCKING NATIONAL EXAMS!! YES WE WERE!! Damn. I'm damn excited

And today, I was having my test in my town for getting into a high school. The tests were going so good. I barely answers all the questions with 100% self-confidence. Seriouly, I was. And then, after the tests, me and my bests, good friends when were in elementary, were gathering all around, and then we planned to off to my house. Damn fun! I had a greatgreat time with all my bests!! We were sharing stories and then laughed at them. We were eating ice creams, drunk tea, adn shared stories again. OMG it was definitely F-U-N! It's been a looong looooong time since we were not gathered around together again. And it was the time when we realized that we've missed each other soooo damn much. Smooch you all my girls :* I wish I'm in the same high school with them. I wish.

And tomorrow, I'm going to hang out with them!!! Excited!! Great day huh? Yea, my bests could make me forgot all the problems I had with someone. Seriously Nad, forgot it.

Alright loves, see you in the next post. XO my bests :*

Not all sweets are sweet

Hello loves, loooooooong time no post! I've been neglecting this blog of mine. Cause I was facing the mocking national exams and others, so I have no time to post something here, I'd preferred tumblr for simpler. But now I'm having my holidays so I have lotsa spare time to spend! And to woke my blog up again. Yea yea yea

So what's good to start? Got any idea? Me? I don't have one. Oh yes oh yes, how about GLEE? You guys are crazy about 'em? ME MORE!!! Yea GLEE is damn amazing!! Effin' cool!! I love all the covers they made. I love Rachel Berry's (Lea Michele) voice, Mercedes' also. My favourite song? Don't Rain On My Parade! Dang they're amazing when they sang this! I was amazed! Seriously, no finger crossed.

Talking about favourite character, who's yours in GLEE? Mine is, of course the perfect pretty cheerleader, Diana Agron as Quinn Fabray. Don't you see that she's damn pretty? I admit it, she just sooooooo pretty. What? Rachel? Yes she does pretty also, but not as pretty as Quinn. And i think Rachel's too obsessed with fame, authority and......boys. Dang.

(Dianna Agron a.k.a Quinn Fabray)

(Lea Michele a.k.aRachel Berry)

See? Quinn Fabray is way prettier than Rachel Berry!

(Glee girls)

GLEE!

Well that's all pretty sufficient for a new post on this month. Gonna post something here later on, till I find a perfect time to spend. FYI, I'm gonna join the tests for get into a highschool this 5-6 May. Wish me a great great luck guys, wish me pass! And yea wish me having a great result on my national exams' NEM. Lotsa thanks loves! XO

Moving function

Hello blogbees, long time no post eh? I'm getting busy with books, books and books. UN is getting near day by day, it's around 1 days to go. TOO FAST AITE? But, I'm promising you after Un, when I'm having my long holeeeeday, I'm gonna post words again, here.

But for now, oyea I'm having a tumblr and maybe I'm more active at there than here. I'd rather post pictures and photos than type lotsa words. So I'm gonna do the moving function of my blog. So check my tumblr out blogbees!

XO

You can't mend a broken heart

Hello sweets,

Gah, I miss blogging already, long time no post, I've been too busy on studying with loads of books, UN is getting close and closer and closer each day. And now it may be around 1 month to go. WHAT A HELL! I AIN'T READY YET! OH MY SWEETHEART BROWNIES PLEASE! >:O

Enough for pretending-that-I'm-shocked-even-that's-so-true

Awwrite, umm yeah, i feel lil bit shame to typed these words. Well, ummm, I don't know, I'm not sure. But, don't be surprise when I'm telling you about this.

I guess, ummm yeah, I'm in l-o-v-e. Woohooo calm down calm down sweets, it's usual aite? Of course he's a guy. A nice one. According to me. But, yeah, I'm not sure about what I feel. Sometimes it can be veruy very (Y), sometimes it can be yeah whatsoever.

I'm a fool when I'm in love. FYI. LOVE just another words I never learn to pronounce. You know, this kinda feeling never I felt since the last 3 years, or more. I'm afraid because of this love I could be tear apart. I'm afraid for being in love. Totally. Afraid

So, if this is love, please don't break me :"(

what? Who is this guy? Naah, I won't telling you about it. It's a secret. My secret. Nobody knows. Even my sister, even my closest friend. It's kind of very very personal. I ain't gonna share it with public. A big sorry :)

Oh and yeah I've been read about the terrible news, very very very terrible one, Alexander McQueen is dead because of committed suicide. Oh my sweetheart brownies! I just can't believe what I read. This is just too............shocking, too impossible to be true.

Dear Alexander, you're one of precious people in the fashion. A really really precious thing. Fashion won't be the same withpout you, your design, your existence. It won't be the same, bet me. His designed always amesome. More than just awesome! I love every clothes, every designed that he made. He's always one step ahead in the process of created a new mode to be followed by universe. Oh my sweetheart brownies, still, till now, I can't believe that Alexander McQueen is no longer live in this world, he leaves us, for the best, it must be.

And here some of what McQueen's did for fashion :

Do you see that I ain't invisible?

Hello sweets,

Night always goes well in every second of your day. Stars are spread everywhere, moon is shining so pretty. Night sky always awesome.

So it's been a long time since the last time i've posted something here. Yeah I got too many try outs and assigments to do. I'm grade 9 already and UN is getting near. Well yeah i'm nervous, toutally nervous. Errrh.......

So I'm going to have another try out on Sunday, held in one of the school here in my town. Well yeah wish me luck for that. Bet me I'll get confused on math and science tests maybe. But wish me wish me wish me luck! *finger crossed*

Well uhm my lovely cat, Luna, was died around 2 weeks ago. I was shocked to hear that terrible news from my lil sista. Ya know, in the morning, me and Luna still played with her, cuddling her and rubbing her belly. She died because of car crashed, did by ma dad. FYI, ma dad never apologize to me about that accident. NEVER. Pathetic aite?

She was my besties. Very very besties. Means A LOT to me. And now she's died already, I got no besties whom I can always told story and share problems all the time, even Luna neva understand what I was saying, but at least I felt bless to had her always by my side, but now, she's gone :(

Errh yeah maybe better I end it up here. I got no words to type again, so bye sweets. Double XO

Ke$ha - Your Love is My Drug

Maybe I need some rehab, or maybe just need some sleep
I've got a sick obsession, I'm seeing it in my dreams
I'm looking down every alley, I'm making those desperate calls
Im staying up all night hoping, Hit my head against the walls

What you've got boy is hard to find
Think about it all about it all the time
I'm all strung up my heart is fried
I just cant get you off my mind

Because your love, your love, your love, is my drug
Your love your love your love
I said your love, your love, your love, is my drug
Your love your love your love

Won't listen to any advice, mamma's telling me to think twice
But left to my own devices i'm addicted its a crisis!
My friends think I've gone crazy, my judgment is getting kinda hazy
My status is gonna be affected if I keep it up like a love sick crackhead

What you've got boy is hard to find
Think about it all about it all the time
I'm all strung up my heart is fried
I just cant get you off my mind

Because your love, your love, your love, is my drug
Your love your love your love
I said your love, your love, your love, is my drug
Your love your love your love

I don't care what people say
The rush is worth the price I pay
I get so high when you're with me
But crash and crave you when you are away

So I got a question
Do you want to have a summer party in my basement?
Do I make your heart beat like a native drum?
Is my love, your drug?
(huh) Your drug? (huh) your drug? (huh) your drug?
Is my love, your drug?

Because your love, your love, your love, is my drug
Your love your love your love
I said your love, your love, your love, is my drug
Your love your love your love
Heyyy heyyy you love, your love, is my drug

Girl in red dress with legging

A girl with red dress and legging? It's me. Today. Red dress and legging were the clothes that I wore today. You never know why I use this words as my blog title. It doesn't sound special or even what. Yea I ain't gonna put some pictures of me in red dress and legging, cause I'm not taking any photo with this clothes

But someone, I call him brothaa, I got no idea how could he know that I was wearing this red dress with legging today for hung out with my friends thingy. Well, I was tweeted that I wore red dress with legging today. Maybe, he just readed my tweet about that. But he told me he wasn't. He saw me with his CCTV. Believe me that CCTV doesn't even exist. It's just something like, out of your mind.

He knew everything that I did without me telling him what I do now. Surprising aite? I don't know whether he is a stalker or what, but I hope not.

But honestly, I love these words. A girl in red dress and legging. Yep bees that's me :)

I'm terrible when I lost something I love

Well yeah bees I've had lost something. I love it very much 'till death. I love it and miss it all the time. All night and all day. It's my pet. A cat. Named Luna. She's my besties. I'd love to share anything with her even maybe she didn't hear or never understand what I was saying. But at least she's a good listener. I told ya, my besties.

This pretty cat with white fur and blue eyes always amazed me. She was giving birth for like 2 months ago. 4 pretty kittens are her babies. I love them as much as Luna's love.

And this early evening I got a bad bad news from my youngest sista. She told me that Luna was dead. Accidentally crashed by my daddy's car. And the worst part is my dady doesn't feel sorry for that accident. Man, it breaks my heart into pieces. Shattered into pieces. Really into pieces.

So I don't feel like I wanna do anything. Even a thing. I got no mood. I'm still feel shocked about the death of Luna. It was just so.....early. In the morning, I was still cuddling her belly. It felt so......ah I don't know. I'm terrible now. I'm messed. Really really a mess

I feel really pity to Luna's kids. They're still really really young, maybe they don't even know that they got no mother anymore. I'm feeling like I wanna crying or what. Shedding a tears will be good to readuce the pain that I feel inside.

So bye bees, RIP my dearest pretty Luna, you'll be in my heart, forever and always :*

Whe the story begin?

Whow blogbees it's really really really LONG TIME NO POST. Aite?

Okay I'm really sorry for being careless to my blog. You guys must be get bored already and like don't wanna read or just click the link of my blog. Xaephonicca Maello

Well I'm a ninth grade student who has to study more, more, more and more all the time. Like 12 hours or even more I spend on bunch of books which full of questions inside it and you could use it to hit your silly sister when you're upset. She'll oughts to fainted, I'm sure

So what I'm telling you is the UN is getting near bees! What I'm ready? Yes, I am.............................NOT READY!!! It's like less than 2 months again and BAM! You're gonna face the UN deariebelle!!!! Terrible aite?! It should be!

So forgive me for posting too late on my blog. I'm not forget this one, just getting lazy to post. Yep that's it.

And well, lately I'm being addicted to a tv programme, GLEE. Man it's like.....errrr.....AWESOMEWONDERFULUHMAZEEENG!!! Am too late for saying this? I hope not. And you know that Ammerican Idol is starting its 9 season already! I never marked 'absent' for watching that superb tv programme! WooHoo!

I love the words 'I'm going to HOLLYWOOD!!!' which spoken by all the people which succed and receive their yellow paper with big '9' printed on it. WONDERFUL! I'm obessed with American Idol! I wanna follow it someday! Oh yes you guys may think I'm not good at singing thing? You never hear me sing, so don't judge me people!

Maybe someday I'm gonna post the video when I'm sing a song here on in my blog. See, hear and comment it! Am I worth for American Idol or not.

Well, I guess this is enough. I have to do my presentation project. Surely, I'm getting crazy because of it. See you soon bees! Double XO

Fatamorgana

Semua gelap, semua hening

Hingga kemudian terlihat seberkas cahaya
Diikuti ujaran, gelakan serta tangisan
Saat kau dekati semua kembali gelap, kembali hening
Mengapa?
Itu hanya fatamorgana

Saat kau tatap bayangan di bawah sinar
Kau bergerak mendekat, namun ia menghilang
Saat genggaman kau rasakan dalam buku-buku jarimu
Kau menggenggamnya balik
Namun kau rasa tak ada yang kau genggam
Hanya tanganmu dan angin yang mengisi rongga-rongganya
Yakinkah kau bahwa itu hanya fatamorgana?

Fatamorgana adalah sebuah kata
Yang artinya yaitu TIDAK NYATA
Tak lain dari hanya sekedar pembiasan biasa, permainan fisika
Yang kau lihat? Itu tidak nyata
Suara-suara yang berujar? Mereka hanyalah bualan, tidak nyata
Apa yang rasakan? Dia tidak nyata, tidak

Bumi yang kau pijaki ini, kau tahu?
Isinya tak lain dan tak bukan adalah fatamorgana
Kau hidup di dalam ketidaknyataan
Tanpa tau dan tanpa merasa apa itu kenyataan
Ya, sekedar fatamorgana belaka, permainan-permainan manusia

New year, new you

Ohello blogger! Long time no post. I miss posting here damnmuch, but I got too many school tasks to be done, and loads of examination to be held. I'm pissed of for sure, they were killing me softly, surely. Yes, I'm freaking out! And the worst thing ever is about the UN. It's getting closer day by day!!!!!!! You know what I never ever get ready for this one. No, for god's sake.

Anyway happy new year 2010 ppl! New year new you hah? I mean the good you. Let's start a new chapter of our life, start to fill our plain 2010 pages with lots of scratches. Have you guys make any resolution? I don't even think to make one. I'm afraid I won't fulfill it. I know every human who's standing on this earth must have at least one goal so that they could have a point for living in this world. An achievement of something. I got one, passed the UN with great score. Above 35, I hope. So wish me lucky luck luck for that. Okay people?

Oh yes I've changed my twitter header also its link. Xaephonicca Maello. Whatcha think? I love it. Don't know why, just love it like that.

Well, it's done here shellas. Chao